retrospect

"in retrospect..."

people always say that, as if had they the fabled 20/20 hindsight, or foresight, or sidesight, lowlight, back when they made the choice that put them there in the first place, they could have, would have, should have made a better, more enlightened decision.

but, it's not true, and it pisses me off. there's three sides to every story. ever heard that? there's your side. my side. and the truth. even had your hindsight been perfection in a royal blue sweater, the view would still be tinted, tainted with your own ideas, opinions, tastes, lusts.

to all of you, all of we, all of me, out there....to all you retrospect(ators) looking back, saying, "if only i had..."

it's done. it's over. let it go. move on.


ghost

oneword: retrospect

People think they remember.

That's one of the lies we tell ourselves when daydreaming about the way it really happened. Childhood recollections are a revisionist's ambition. Try abducting a childhood memory and replaying it through the mind of an adult, it's like projecting a home movie into a swimming pool. You are familiar with the scenes, but they're different, distorted. And depending on which way the winds blowing, you may not see anything recognizable at all.

script to scream

Themes I am exploring with an amazing writer, co-creator at current:

Sanity vs. insanity
Success vs. failure
Passion vs. plodding along
Family vs. alone
Love vs. apathy
Community vs. isolation
Caring vs. existing
Thinking vs. doing
Insecurity vs. action

Over-arching flows:
Sacrifice
Survival
Unrequited love
Quest
Insanity
Mutated concept of family
Friendship
Judgement
Father Daughter relationships
Reconnecting with estranged/lost family

let me know any thoughts on the above...random or otherwise.

one word: retrospect

Hindsight colors each great decision with the shadow of “if I had only known.” I have never walked in shadows and refuse even those of my own making.

corporate

something corporate? is that a band? or just the newest line of martha stewart bullshit being passed off as 'cool' or 'hip' or 'the latest in home decor?' pha q martha. i wish you had been shanked in jail.

one word: corporate

Palaces of glass and steel; shining bodies for the dark beings they house. Lifeless in form, actions are executed with tireless repetition and remorseless ease. Souls’ shadows reflect faintly in the polished surface, pained in presence but terrified of flight. The machine hums, feeding on its own waning light. The process repeats.

one word: vain

Deliciously self indulgent, the reflection obliges your every request. Beauty beheld! Foundations of ego are carved from living advertising. Homage paid, the mirror barters a pleasant day for its worship.

oneword: vain

The sinew of self-importance…an opaque subsistence…lipstick aspirations do little to sate the desire for approval. Heartbreaking pleas are mistaken for beauty…

Who is taking advantage of whom?